I am losing a fight with my internet...

I have been messing with this stupid internet issue all dang day. I had a 70 year old cable man cap my service because I was getting a higher bandwidth than I was supposed to because I was "breaking the rules". I was like, "Dude! The issue I am having is that my internet slows down when I am "web conferencing" (Hehe, you guys know what that means...) and uploading files that use a lot of internet power and I CAN NOT have that with my job... How is making my internet connection WEAKER going to help me???"

He insists he has to do it because it's the rules and then goes on to meander around and totally NOT do what I asked him to do which was to install the new (and better) routers so that I can possibly avoid these issues.

I am so mad right now I could burst a blood clot! (Haha, not funny... But the best way I can keep from crying about the lingering effects of my stroke is to make uncouth jokes about my condition.) So now my buddy is here hooking up one of the new routers to check and see if it helps my problem... but NOW with a capped connection! Yay!

I think I am going to have to just change ISPs because I am paying for two 20meg services/connections and I only usually am getting less than 10megs with both connections combined! I'd rather pay for a lighter connection that's consistent than pay for something that is supposed to be super fast but drops out of me when I need it most... (i.e. when I am doing my members shows or uploading files to update my site.)

So yeah, I haven't gotten anything done yet today except for getting pissed at the cable man and I am not even sure my internet is okay right now so I am not doing the members show tonight however I am making up for it but doing a Lingerie Strip Tease Show tomorrow instead of the 3D! I hope you guys will enjoy that, I know you have enjoyed it every time I have done it these last few weeks:)

I hope my buddy comes back after he is done with his stuff later on tonight to hook up the other router so I have a solid connection for tomorrows show!

I also want to apologize for not updating last week. I was soooo tired it was insane! I kept trying to get up and get stuff done but then crashing every time. I think this is all due to the fact that I just totally have been pushing myself way too hard since the stroke. I shouldn't have tried to do back to doing my daily members shows really until around NOW instead of just 2 weeks afterward. I think I can handle it now but you guys know I am still suffering from residual effects and there will be days like today that I just won't be able to fit in all of my behind the scenes work with the site, my members show, make my doctors appointments and fix the internet all in a 24 hour period... I am truly sorry about this but I don't want to push myself so hard that I end up having another stroke before I recover from the last one.

One of the causes of a stroke IS STRESS and although they think it was the birth control I was taking that caused it my stress level (which is VERY HIGH on a regular basis) probably influenced my illness as well so I need to try to take it day to day and not allow myself to feel bad about doing so. I really hope you guys can understand that and take it easy on me:)

My cameras are half way down right now (from all the issues with my internet today) but I am going to get them back up later tonight!

Peace Out Homies!

Jess